Wonder why.
Maybe it's because I feel that if I do post about something that's going on with me, it would look entirely like a rehash of the things I talked about several months ago. Certain teacher is an idiot. Frustrating to explain simple things to certain people. Not a lot of direction in life. Not feeling well. Sleep cycle screwed up. Horrible grammatical errrors in study material. Own grammar appears to be deteriorating. Pronunciation getting more slack than usual. Procrastinating even more. Frustration, anger, exhaustion, insomnia.
For some while I actually managed to get back into a good sleep/wake cycle. Sure, I was kinda drowsy in the mornings and I was too tired to practice my euphonium at night... But at least I could sleep when it was dark and wake up like a normal human being. Still don't really understand why humans don't just become nocturnal. The amount of DNA damage that we could avoid by reducing our exposure to harmful ultraviolet radiation. What good does sunlight do for us anyway? I mean, directly. It's not like we need sunlight to photosynthesise or anything.
Although I once had this idea where we would implant chloroplasts into our skin cells, and modify them to produce ethanol in the same way that certain bacteria do. That way, we could go stand in the sun and get drunk at the same time.
We'd also probably die, but hey, one problem at a time.
I have this nagging fear that I was never really intelligent, just lucky. I'm not as creative as I might appear at certain times. Most of my ideas are merely innovations of existing ideas. As Einstein once said, the secret the creativity is knowing how to hide your sources. I don't hide my sources. I just make sure that the people I'm with aren't aware of my sources. Oh you know, this part here was just some random bullshit that came to my mind. Ignore.
Anyway, I have recently acquired a new game, Red Alert 3. The Red Alert series has always been the lighter, funnier counterpart to the more serious Tiberium saga by the same creators, but RA3 is the trippiest, most laugh-out-loud RTS I have ever played. The units must've been dreamt up by someone on drugs. Boat that sprouts legs and shoots electricity? Check. Giant robot thing that was totally taken out from that Gundam anime? Check. Psychic schoolgirl that rips tanks apart? Check. Oh, and there's even this tank that fires people out of a cannon.
The main reason that I bought the game, however, was for the co-op campaign. It's not like Red Alert 3 is the first ever RTS with a co-op mode; the highly rated World in Conflict featured (according to reviews) an immersive and realistic co-op mode, where each player would command either the army, the navy, or the airforce. The thing is, that World in Conflict had fairly high PC requirements and so the plan made among my friends to buy the game never came to pass. I, however, am a fan of the Red Alert series, and so I was going to buy it whether or not my friends did. Unfortunately, Hongjie's computer seems to have contracted virtual HIV, so playing online with him is out of the question for some time.
And it's 12.20am. What am I doing? I said I would go to sleep two hours ago. But no, instead I had to mention how stupid one of my instructors was being to my parents, thus causing them to be concerned. And so, like and logical and level-headed person, I explained my story in great detail. That took some time. Then they asked questions. And gave advice. I also used several synonyms of "idiot", that I have become very accostomed to using ever since I came to the conclusion that most people were imbeciles. Unfortunately, far from helping the situation, I only got more upset and frustrated, and got into bed imagining how fun it would be to unleash a deadly biological weapon into the atmosphere.
Nah, I'm not serious. They don't let people who have psychotic tendencies into higher education.
Or maybe they do. How do you explain Virginia Tech?
The answer is not video games.
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I love this keyboard. The keyboards on notebook computers are so soft and silent. They require so little effort to depress and they feel so good on the fingers. I've been looking for a keyboard for my desktop that has a similar texture to that of a notebook computer. Some time ago at an IT fair I purchased a $10 Logitech keyboard that had softer, nicer keys than my old keyboard. At the time, the diference was marvelous and it really felt great. Now, however, I'm beginning to feel the depth of each keystroke, beginning to cringe as I hear the loud clack of the keys. It's just not silent enough, not soft enough. I'm beginning to think that the only proper softkey types of keyboards are gaming keyboards. Those, unfortunately, are extremely pricey.
Seeing as that I am not using my desktop, where all my pictures are stored, I do not have anything for today. Instead, here's a recent comic from Cyanide & Happiness:
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net
~Joe~